We are excited. We are nerveous. This was unexpected. We are suppose to be adopting from Ethiopia. What in the world is going on. This isn't what we planned. What, we are having another baby.
These are all things that went through my brain in a matter of seconds when that little stick said, "Pregnant".
We are Excited....
we are beyond excited. Just the thought of another little Whittaker sends chills down my spine. Whether the baby be like Whitt or not ( i mean I know it will be its own person and everything but...) just makes me all kind of excited. I was looking through Whitt's baby pictures the other night and just felt blessed on how I get to do this all over again.... Just blessed.
We are Nerveous.....
With all the stuff that when down with Whitt, the second I read "pregnant", the fear started to creep in. "What if I have preeclampsia again"? "What if I have this baby before 29 weeks"? "What if I have a stroke like I was so close to having last time"? The what-if's are endless.... But hey, God is good and He has this. This doesnt mean the fear doesnt creep in from time to time but I have an amazing group of prayer warriors that are fighting in this battle on our behalf. So yes, I am nerveous but the fact that God is good trumps that fear.
This was unexpected....
Yes it was, to us anyway!
We are suppose to be adopting from Ethiopia.....
Yes, and we still are.... it will just be pushed back a little. We cannot legally through our agency, get a referal until Baby #2 is 6 months old. God hasn't ended this journey for us, so we are trucking along, we are just taking a little detour.
This isnt what we planned.....
This was something that took my mind a little while to wrap around. I am a planner. I like a schedule. Remember we were adopting. That was the plan. But our sweet Jesus had his own plan and I know it will be sweet. So I am choosing to embrace it full on.
So There it is. We are expecting BABY #2, come December 25th..... We are excited. We are nerveous. This was unexpected. We are suppose to be adopting from Ethiopia. What in the world is going on. This isn't what we planned. What, we are having another baby.
All of the above it true and fun (minus the daily puking, thank you first trimester) and has turned our little world upside down for the good of course.
So friends, pray with us on this new journey we are on.... That I will be healthy, that baby will be healthy. God is good. Whew.....
Baby #2 Coming December 25, 2012 |